I think this thing I keep calling my “acid stomach” is getting worse and that means I am going to have to see someone about it.
I can tell them about the loss of appetite too.
Exactly who I will be telling is uncertain. The pain from it is getting bad enough that I am starting to worry about it, so there may not be a lot of time to wait.
So of course, this has to happen on a Friday, meaning that if it gets worse, I will have to go to the god damned ER with it.
For that reason alone, I hope it goes away once I have eaten. But I am not hopeful.
Might be heartburn. Or worse, “heartburn”. With my heart in the delicate condition it is in, I can’t afford to assume anything in that region is not actually a cardiac issue.
But it’s definitely a burning. acidic feeling, not just an ache. So there’s that. Still something to worry about, but not quite as scary.
Still could be something below the stomach, like the prostate, swelling up and pushing it up from below, reducing available stomach volume.
After all, if the same amount of digestive acid is going into a smaller stomach, it might overwhelm the usual mucous layer that keeps the stomach from digesting itself, right?
But it doesn’t feel like that. Honestly, I think it might be acid reflux. That happens when tummy turmoil (science!) causes stomach acid to splash up into the esophagus.
As if to provide evidence, two burps just came out to say hello. I feel a bit better now.
Man, the words are grinding out slow right now. I feel terrible. Might end up in the ER sooner than I thought, god damn it.
I hate being in the ER. So much waiting!
They should have one of those “virtual wait in line” systems where you can check in and then they message you when they are ready for you.
I’d much rather wait at home, where I have all my comforts, then sit there both sick and bored waiting to be digested by the system.
Trust me, I will be happy as a clam to wait as long as you like as long as I have my Fallout 76 and my tunes.
I feel kind of ill in general. Earlier I had that thing where some kind of intestinal disturbance causes my back to tie itself up in knots.
Trust me, it’s all connected.
So I might be in the early stages of a pretty bad time. I sure hope not, but it’s possible.
Whatever. I can handle it if it’s just the usual IBS type bullshit.
If it’s something worse, to the ER I will go, no matter how much that sucks.
And sigh, add yet another part of me that is broken to the list. At this rate, I will end up i living that “strapped down and full of tubes” nightmare yet.
More after the break.
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Or would that be steam? Point is, the fire is out. Mostly.
My “heartburn” did subside once I had eaten. It’s not entirely gone. I can feel an ache and a slight hot feeling where it was.
Presumably that’s the after-effects of the acid from the previous issue. Good thing I stopped it before it damaged me even more.
I am still quite wary of the whole thing though. I will be monitoring the situation closely for at least the entire weekend.
I sure as hell don’t want stomach acid eating away at my esophageal lining. I remember the horror stories from back when acid reflux first made the news and they are not pretty. I sure as fuck don’t want to go there.
So I shall maintain a healthy paranoia about the subject.
Feeling very tired right now. Want to go take a nap instead of blogging and eating.
But i have been doing that too much lately. Sleeping when I should be eating. The drop in stimulus level from playing Fallout 76 to mundane reality is steep and it has a tenency to make me need a nap.
But food and blogging come FIRST, god damn it. I have to earn my nap! I will get my words one while snacking on a Hungryman Sub from 7-11 and drinking my Diet Pepsi and only when I have written word 1000 (and beyond) shall I rest.
And I’m around 3/4 of the way there, or 1/2 of this half’s words.
Now class, what is half of a half? A quarter! Very good!
You may get one cookie from the basket.
Food is here. Nomf. Nothing like a good sub to hit the spot when your body wants broad spectrum nutrition that also tastes good.
And quite frankly, I need the vitamin B12. After doing okay for a while, I have been totally slacking off on the “one meal a day with animal products and hence B12” front lately and I imagine myself to be once more in serious B12 deficit by now.
It’s not like I don’t have the food. I have some cans of soup that would fit the bill and we always have cheese slices for grilled or toasted cheese sammiches,
It’s purely a matter of laziness. Doing my usual meal of trail mix and Smartfood popcorn is the easiest option so that it what I do. It requires no ambition, focus, drive, courage, or any of the other related life-affirming virtues I lack.
Natively, anyhow. I can be inspired to them in great amounts.
Maybe I should learn to seek the winds to fill my sails.
But not until I am healthy enough to weigh anchor. There is still a lot of frozen sadness within me and until it thaws I am icebound.
But spring will come and my waters will flow and the sun will banish the night and my own personal ice age will end at last.
Just don’t ask me when.
I will talk to you nice people again tomorrow.