In other words, crummy. (Crumbly? That too. )
That’ how I feel today. I hope I am not coming down with another attack of flu-like symptoms, but I kind feel like I am.
I’ve been very sleepy all day, and my muscles are aching. Overall I feel kinda swollen and sore. My sleep has been fitful and restless and it takes me a long time to wake up.
Sometimes, my trip back from the Land of Nod is a long and perilous one indeed.
Ergo I am pretty sure I am coming down with or have contracted something. I definitely feel substantially crappier than usual.
Just be glad I didn’t title this entry, “Like a crap”.
To the tune of :
I get the feeling that I have had some pretty wild and intense dreams as a result of this nameless ague, but I of course don’t remember any of them.
At some point, I just stopped remembering dreams. Haven’t remembered more than tiny fragmentary half-moments in years. Not even real memories, just a moment of feeling like I’d been reminded of something but couldn’t remember what.
Which is, you must admit, kinda fucked up.
Speak of which, there’s something I find amusing in Baldur’s Gate 3.
This one character, Kaylach, swears. Says “fuck” and everything. It’s one of her many endearing traits and one of the main reasons she’s my fave character so far and also my kind-of girlfriend.
We haven’t fucked yet because she’s too hot for me. Literally. When she gets excited her skin becomes fiery and hot. Like lava.
Kind of cuts down on the cuddles.
Anyhow, the funny part is that she is literally the only person in the game who swears. And the voice actress does a great job but doesn’t quite make me believe she is is a person to whom swearing comes naturally.
Trust me. I grew up amongst those kinds of people. I’m one of them myself. So is the rest of my highly nerdy, well educated family.
And she’s not one of us.
It therefore makes her seem like a little kid using the bad words for the first time and trying to sound all cool and grown up about it.
Which is, of course, adorable. So it’s all for the good.
It got me thinking about my own odd family and how someone from a more traditional kind of family might react to our milieu. though.
To other middle class kids, the Bertrand household would have been incredibly confusing because we were all clearly highly intelligent, well spoken, and articulate, yet the furniture was all clawed up by the cats, we are seated around a big kitchen table, and of course we swore freely and in many ways talked like working class people as often as we talked like the bookish clan we were.
To someone with a more traditional, tightassed upbringing, these were seriously mixed signals. Just what kind of people were we, anyhow? Middle class or low?
We were free. That’s what we were. Thanks to our highly progressive parents, we were free of a lot of the pointlessly restrictive conformist bullshit other kids put up with and were free to be who we wanted to be most of the time.
My parents were a hell of a lot less than perfect, but they got that right at least.
More after the break.
Like powdered fruit juice
In other words, dehydrated.
I think that’s the crux of why I feel crappy today. There may be other factors as well, but I feel the main issue is that I got behind on my hydration somehow.
And as far as I can tell, I have been drinking water at a more or less normal rate (in other words, constantly), so it is possible that what I really lack in my system is salt.
Salt is how your cells retain water, after all. By making tiny changes in the salinity of the water inside you, your body can cause the water to either pass through certain membranes or be stopped by them, and that’s how the body controls water flow.
But it needs to have the salt to do that with. And obviously every time you pee, some of that precious salt goes out with the tide, and you have to replace it via nutritional intake.
I remember this coming up way, way back when sodium was the nutritional villain du jour. People were eliminating so much sodium from their diet that they were ending up in the hospital because they were constantly drinking water but still VERY thirsty.
Eat a bag of Doritos, you dimwits!
Um, but enough of the science lesson. Man, what a tangent.
Part of my problem is that I did what I should never do, and skipped a meal last night. I ended up never having my midnight snack because at the last minute (ish), Joe announced that he was too sick for our usual Tuesday night hanging with Felicity via the magic of Zoom.
And he usually hosts the meeting, so no Joe, no meeting.
Were I a more robust living organism, I would have simply hosted it myself and had my snack and everything would have gone on as planned, sans Joe.
But I am a fragile being and so that was enough to totally derail things, including the meal that was supposed to happen.
This is, by far, the most frequent reason I miss a meal. Something happens to disrupt a midnight confab of some kind and I just…. don’t eat.
And then I end up sick in one way or another. Derp.
Oh well. I am catching up on my hydration now and feeling somewhat better. I still have some muscle pain but I am hoping catching up on sleep will help with that.
And if not, I have more Gabapentin. Wonderful, soothing, God given Gabapentin.
I will talk to you nice people again tomorrow.