That’s how I have been feeling lately. And I have also been sleeping better.
I am sure these factors are somehow related.
Lately I have actually been sleeping at night. At almost a normal hour, even.
Well, closer to normal, anyhow. Like 2 am.
And then I sleep for around five hours. Wake up bleary and feeling terrible, but in a healthy kind of way.
Like, I have always woken up slowly and reluctantly. Even when I was a little kid. I think almost everyone wakes up feeling that way.
Hence the popularity of coffee.
But then for the rest of the day, I feel more clear-headed and energetic and focused and am, in general, in a better mood.
Dunno what I am doing right, but I sure hope I keep doing it.
I still nap a fair bit. That hasn’t changed. I suppose that means I am sleeping for more hours total now, which is not a bad thing at all.
I wonder if it has something to do with what I’ve been eating lately? It seemed to start last Sunday and that’s when my latest Amazon grocery order came in.
Since then, I’ve been eating a lot of sunflower seeds (no shell, roasted, salted) and sesame sticks (garlic flavoured!), both from the lovely folks at Yupik.
Neither are entirely unique to my diet as they have both shown up in various trail mixes (trails mix?) I have eaten in the past.
If I had to pick one of them to be the change maker, I would have to pick the sesame sticks as when they were part of Yupik’s Village Mix trail mix I was finding them REALLY , really delicious, like my body was saying, “Yes! THIS! Eat this!”.
And that’s usually the thing I should be eating.
By themselves, the sesame sticks are still tasty, but after more than a handful of them a certain unpleasant undertone to the flavour takes over.
Basically, they start tasting like dry dog food.
Lesson learned. They taste better as part of a mix
Not sure what, exactly, would be the magic ingredient to my sleeping better. Maybe they somehow have vitamin B12 in them?
If so, vegans really need to know about it. They desperately need a non animal based source of vitamin b12.
As far as I know, there ain’t one. Which really messes with their worldview, dunnit?
Whatever the magic nutrient is, I am a lot better off with it in my system. I mean, my days aren’t filled with golden bliss or anything – that would be creepy.
And like I said, I still do a lot of napping. Hard to say whether I need to do it or whether it’s just a habit.
I suspect it’s more that I use it as an emotional security blanket. Like I have mentioned many times before, a nap resets my background anxiety level which would otherwise creep up slowly all day until I had a full blown panic attack.
But I dunno. Maybe if I let that happen enough, I will get over it, and be better able to deal with the 9 to 5 world.
Then again, why bother?
More after the break.
My new perverted toy
WARNING : NSFW images will ensue.
I have joined the AI revolution for the noblest of reasons : masturbation.
Ya see, I downloaded a program called Easy Diffusion, which is an easy (ish) to install and use version of Stable Diffusion, the now world famous AI image generating tool that generates images from text you type in.
I did so because I saw some furry art a friend had generated and I wanted in. She pointed me to the program and a vitally important add-on for it.
You see, by default, what the program generates is nice, but dull.
For example, here is what you get if you type in “a photograph of a bear” :
Impressively realistic, but I’m a furry. We don’t do “real”.
However, if you switch to an image generation “model” called YiffyMix which has been trained on thousands of pieces of furry art, you get this :
Still realistic but much closer to the cartoon aesthetic we fuzzies prefer.
Well then, what if I type in “a cartoon of a bear”?
Holy crap, that’s children’s book illustrator quality art! And doesn’t he look like friendly, cuddly, avuncular sort.
And yet, something about him just doesn’t feel “furry” enough. He needs something in order to make this truly a piece of furry art.
Bigger ears? No. A fireman’s uniform? Nah. A festive bandana? I don’t think so.
Oh, I know. He needs a penis!
HEY THERE MISTER BEAR! You uh… need help keeping your lap warm?
That big ol cock of yours sure looks tasty. Well, don’t be shy on our account, get yourself some of that!
You can even add some basic body functions!
Clear urine. Clearly, Mister Bear is well hydrated.
Great, now I’m thirsty.
And finally, in the interest of equal representation, we present the other side.
And so forth and so on. The perverted possibilities are endless, making this the best dirty toy for naughty (grown up) children ever.
Sadly, I have only managed to make it do solo stuff so far. It might be that the home version can’t handle the complexities of physical interconnection as it is not really modeling anything in 3D.
Or maybe I just don’t know the right way to phrase it yet.
I hope it’s the latter, because as stimulating as the solo stuff can be, porn isn’t truly porn unless there are multiple participants.
Is this not an age of awe inspiring miracles we live in?
Now how do I get my hands on that AI voice synthesis….
I will talk to you nice people again tomorrow.