Tonight’s the night I do it. I buy my ten cans.
As you no doubt recall, my plan is to buy ten cans of whole, healthier foods like soups, stews, chili, baked beans, and so on in order to give myself more solid nutrition to go on and hopefully make myself both healthier and happier.
And I am starting to resist this idea and that goddamned whiny voice inside me is starting up with the “Aww, do we have to do it tonight? Maybe we could…. ” and I am feeling my overall resolve waver, so I figured I had better write about it today and talk myself through the objections so I will be ready to go through with it tonight.
The first objection, as always, is money. This is a sneaky one as it can always disguise itself as a practical concern. My income is quite small, after all.
But this time, that concern is bullshit, because I have the money. I am floating a surplus of around $100 right now from my GST and other tax check, so now is the time to try something new and see how it pans out.
It’s not like I had great plans for the extra money. And I am slowly weaning myself of the idea that some piece of technology I buy will somehow unlock my creative potential and solve all my problems.
I mean, I bought a very good mic with my Xmas Amazon money, and I plugged it in, verified it worked, and it’s just sat there since.
No technology can solve the problem when the problem is depression.
Once I have my cans, the plan is to have one as the main course for supper every night when I eat at home. That means ten decent meals which have protein and those all important B vitamins.
In other health news, I really need to inject some insulin, but I can’t find my swabs. I know I need the injection because I am being tormented by extreme hunger and that means things have gotten pretty bad.
I might inject sans swab. That’s not exactly safe or smart. I inject right into my belly fat and an infection there can lead to a swift and terrible death.
Bacteria find belly fat delicious. Shudder.
But leaving myself like this is also unhealthy. And not just physically. Being crazy frigging hungry all the time put a lot of stress on my mood as well.
So I will make one more good faith attempt to find my individually wrapped alcohol swabs, and then inject regardless.
Washing the injection site with soap and water probably works just as well.
Besides, like with the ten cans, I need to ignore the voice of hesitance, timidity, and surrender in my head, and instead embrace my allies, untapped rage and bloody minded determination to have my way.
I am going to lead a healthier life even if I have to bludgeon a million personal demons to death in order to get there.
More after the break.
Smart Versus Stupid
Fuck politics. Let’s talk smart versus stupid.
Because there are a lot of stupid people saying and doing stupid things in the world and getting away with murder because nobody has the guts to tell them how fucking stupid they are and I here to fix that problem and I don’t care whose feelings I hurt or whether or not what I say is politically correct.
Fuck political correctness. The truth is the truth whether you like it or not. Grown ups face the facts and deal with reality. Only little babies try to hide beneath the covers and pretend things they don’t like aren’t true.
And the truth is, folks, that the world is in one hell of a mess because the stupids have gotten together to elect people just as ignorant and stupid as they are and it’s these mental midgets who are calling the shots.
And you know I am not talking about education. Fuck education. I don’t give a shit what degree you have from what university. You could have more degrees than a digital thermometer and still be really fucking stupid.
No, I am talking real stupidity here folks. The kind that leads to bad results. Like the man said, stupid is as stupid does, and there’s a lot of stupid being done in the world today, and it’s never gonna stop until someone says something.
Well here I am, saying something. And I will keep saying it as loud and as hard as I can for as long as I can before the stupids shut me down. You can count on that.
For example, you got a lot of people who will believe anything some idiot on TV tells them. Anything! If the right person on TV said it, these people would believe the sky is green, water isn’t wet, and little green aliens live in their toupee.
Now I don’t give a damn what your politics are, that’s just plain stupid.
And a lot of these same people explain away any information that hurts their precious little feelings as all part of some giant conspiracy run by people they couldn’t name for reasons that don’t make sense and that wouldn’t even work in the first place if it was real, which any fool could tell you it is not.
Again, I don’t give two shits about your politics, if you go around spouting that kind of horse puckey, you are as stupid as that makes you look and you deserve to be mocked and dismissed as the harebrained loonie you really are.
Decent, sensible, hardworking people have had more than enough of your bullshit and we are not going to take it any more.
You’re stupid,.stupid, stupid and it doesn’t matter if you have a hundred other fools who think the same thing in your Facebook group, you’re still stupid, and the other hundred fools are even stupider than you are.
So join with me, all the good and decent and sensible people of the world, and call out the stupid when you see it.
And when our voice is loud and strong enough, we will take the world away from the stiupids and put it back in the hands of the good and decent people like ourselves.
I will talk to you nice people again tomorrow.