So over the last few weeks, I have been playing the ever loving fudge out of Assassin’s Creed : Black Flag.
It’s a great game. I have taken to the life of a bloodthirsty pirate with ease.
After all, it’s not so different from the life of a bloodthirsty Assassin.
Except you have a boat. With like, cannons and shit.
And that makes a big difference to me. Letting my have my own ship that I can use to wander as I please is a huge, huge bonus for a game to me. I love having the autonomy to choose what I do next instead of following a linear script.
:Linear scripts can be pretty awesome too. But still, I prefer having a ship.
It was my favorite thing about both the Mass Effect series and Pillars of Eternity 2.
So I have poured dozens and dozens of hours into being a pirate (who I named Browneyed Peter), conquering forts, doing quests, exploring the high seas, and generally having a heck of a good time of it.
It might be my favorite of all the AC games.
Last week,I had a scare. I went to load my game and it wasn’t there. Oh fuck. All that time and effort down the drain!
But I looked up how to get my saved game back,and it worked. Turns out the game keeps a backup copy of your save. All I had to do was rename the file.
Problem solved! Crisis averted! Phew! And now I know how to fix the issue should it arise again. Huzzah!
But no, fate was just setting me up. Because today, when I went to play, it told me my save game was corrupted and that I had to either start over or “load another save”.
But the game only keeps one save at a time, normally.
So I go to the save game directory and guess what, there is no backup to restore this time. There is the fucked save and empty saves but no backup.
So as it turns out, I did end up losing all that time and effort and it looks like I have no choice but to start all over again.
And I probably will, eventually. It’s too good a game to give up on.
But not yet. I am still grieving Browneyed Peter.
I submitted a support ticket to Ubisoft as a gesture of my displeasure. I highly doubt that anything will come of it.
And then, in a move that only makes sense to me, I downloaded and reinstalled Skyrim.
Look, some of us express our anger by doing something flamboyantly self-destructive.Other people might get an offensive tattoo, or go to a bar and pick a fight with someone they know can kick their ass, or go on a bender.
Me, I reinstall a video game that sucked up me entire life and from which I have never fully recovered and was the root cause of my video game addiction.
I doubt it will take over like that this time, though.It’s not the new hotness, it’s not the only way I can express certain oppressed urges any more, and I am older and more jaded and harder to impress.
And I still play video games all day. That never changed. Only the games changed.
So honestly, what harm can it do?
More after the break.
Dazed and confused
Feeling quite mixed up at the moment.
Like everything is spinning both physically and emotionally. Especially emotionally.
Like something is trying to goad me into action but all it’s really doing is make me anxious and restless and discontent.
I can’t seem to settle one something to do. I keep switching. That’s not good and I need to stop it – for me, that shit always leads to a serious freak out of some sort.
So i am deliberately stopping myself and holding myself still and maybe screaming real loud on the inside until the fever passes and I can be still again.
Or at least comfortable.
I skipped supper again tonight. Done that three or four times lately. Suppertime comes around and I have no appetite so I just skip it.
Totally not supposed to do that. Diabetics should not skip meals.That’s just a blood sugar crash waiting to happen.
And yet, here I am. To be honest, I think that in the short term it actually makes me feel better, presumably because it gives my blood sugar more time to drop.
And forcing yourself to eat when you aren’t hungry suuuuuucks. Every instinct rebels against it. Sure, you can force yourself to do it but your body, especially your stomach, will make its anger known.
Kinda like forcing a cranky toddler to do something they don’t want to do. Sure, you might win, but it will cost you.
It’s times like this that I wish there really was such a thing as a meal replacement pill. Just a standard size pill you can take and get everything you would have gotten out of a real meal without having to eat.
Would be real handy in these times where my appetite goes byebye.
I’m having second thoughts about my Skyrim project.
Not out of worry about getting re-addicted. That’s old news.
I am beginning to wonder if I even want to play the damned thing. I made a character and went through the intro and fucked around a bit, and I realized that I am basically still sick of the game.
And I haven’t played it for many years.
So I dunno. I might set the whole thing up with all the pervy stuff I adore and then just use it as a sexual playground till I get bored of it and uninstall/
If so, big deal. I had my fun and my horny nostalgia. It was something to do until I was ready to start over in Black Flag.
Or maybe I will buy some entirely new game to keep me busy.
No matter what happens, one thing’s for sure :
It won’t fucking matter,
I will talk to you nice people again tomorrow.