First, last night’s video. It’s music.

Listening to it again, it’s not my best work. The layering is less than subtle and there’s not much of an ending. I really should try harder to make these things sound professional.

Nevertheless, I am insanely pleased with it, because I have finally made some high-energy ass kicking adrenalized music. It’s the kind of music I have always wanted to make, but never seemed to manage it because I got too lost in the details of making the music. Last night, though, I felt different.

I wanted to make something that made your pulse quicken, and I did! Yay me.

I also forgot to post this :

Got real pissed off with Larry. Nothing gets me quite as mad as people I consider to be rational, decent people on the side of reason and enlightenment selling out. And in a way that can only make the world a worse place! If everyone got over the irrational ick factor of reclaimed water, there’d be no such thing as a drought because the city systems would be so much more efficient that we would have a huge surplus that could go to farmers.

Amazing what it takes to get people talking about efficiency.

Here on the home front, I have assigned myself the task of combing through those skit idea files I compiled many a lifetime ago when I thought it was possible to get a bunch of slackers together and get anything done, and look for jokes.

I am still pretty bitter about that, as you can tell.

Anyhow, back in those starry-eyed halcyon days, I would type up all our brilliant skit ideas and save them, 100 ideas to a file.

And there’s 16 of them. 1600 skit ideas, some of which can be turned from comedy skits to standup bits. I am putting it all in a master joke file, which also contains a bunch of stuff I came up with recently.

In fact, that’s where I started. I went through my notes on each of my tablets first, then dug into the skit idea files. I have done two of them so far, and I have 26 jokes and ideas for bits.

When I go to class tomorrow, I will be very well prepared. For once.

What I really need is some kind of cross-platform note-taking program, so that it’s the same set of notes whether I am on one of my two tablets or here on this ancient computron of mine.

As has somehow become a tradition, today (Monday) was an extremely sleepy day for me. Dunno why Mondays are so sleepy for me, but the one thing that makes Monday different is that I ate out the previous night.

So decent nutrition for once might just be a factor. It would be weird to discover that I would sleep better if I ate better, but I would not really be surprised. My diet, while not as bad as some people’s, is still pretty crappy. Not a lot of protein, calcium, iron, and other good stuff.

So it’s entirely plausible that when it gets a decent meal, my body is like “finally!” and makes me sleep a long time so it can make maximum use of this unexpected nutritional bounty.

It’s just a theory.

I’m sleepy right now. Maybe my body isn’t done with its renovation project and needs more time. Or, it could just be that my sleep apnea has caught up with me. Who knows.

Makes it a lot harder to write, though. I keep getting lost in my own thoughts and forgetting that I am actually writing. Then I blink and realize I haven’t typed a thing for two minutes.

It just happened again.

I feel pretty good lately. I have gotten over the hurdle of not wanting to sit down and write jokes in any formal way. I am getting better at remembering to write down funny thoughts when I have them. The goal is to make it as natural and easy as possible so I can just do it and then go back to whatever I was doing.

But I also have to let it become a desire, an itch, so that it feels less like an obligation and more like a need. If I feel the urge to write down funny thoughts, and a related feeling of nervousness and anxiety until it is done, then that should be enough to keep me doing it.

The defining moments will be the moments when I have a funny thought and recognize it as something I should write down, but don’t feel like interrupting what I am doing in order to do so.

If I do it anyway, I move forward. I want to kill my laziness and this is exactly how that is done. And the less it gets its way, the faster it will die.

It’s no magic bullet, but it will kill the beast.

It’s not like being lazy has ever made me happy. It seems like it does if you stay locked in the game of feeling good because you are avoiding work (gee, you’re so smart) instead of getting any actual sense of accomplishment from life, but if there was no chance you would do it in the first place, then what are you really avoiding?

And maybe, just maybe, you’d be much happier actually doing things and expressing your pent up energies.

In my case, I know damned well that I am happier and calmer and more truly content when I am physically active and getting things off my to-do list done. But I am still somewhat in the grips of the whole panoply of issues that keep me from doing stuff, like that feeling that I have that whatever I do, I will just fuck up and someone will have to come fix it and it will be clear to all that I shouldn’t have tried in the first place.

Come to think of it, that’s a pretty big one. Should probably bring that up in comedy.

Er, I mean therapy.

Meh. Same thing.

I will talk to you nice people again tomorrow.