Y’all better back the fuck up because I’m gonna puke my pain onto the page and the first three rows WILL get wet.

Been pretty depressed lately. No source except possibly the change of seasons. No terrible event looming…. well, not in my personal life, anyhow.

The world itselgf is slowly sliding into an environmental apocalypse and we’re all watching it happen and not doing a damned thing about it, like we’re all tied to the tracks watching global warming steam towards us.

We all know it’s only going to get worse. And we know that with the idiots the pold people have put into power all around the world, the source will continue.

But eventually the problem will sort itself out.

When society has fallen apart to the point where nobody drives cars or runs power plants and factories any more.

So…. yay that.

And I guess that has been eating away at my mood. I have glimpsed a future where we finally went ahead and broke the goddamned planet amd the evidence of how badly we fucked up will be all around us at all times and we will have to live and die with the knowledge that bnothing short of nuclear war could have failed our kids’ generation harder or more thoroughly.

That horrifies me far, far more than whatever happens to me personally. I am sure my life will change a fair bit and I might have to become that hardcore angry bludgeoning bulldozer than I have been dodging for my whole life.

But I will survive somehow. I’m extremely intelligent, have many talents, and I’m fairly adaptable when I need to be.

I am sure gonna miss video games and the Internet, though. Who knows, maybe they will survive in some form.

But life will still be far more shitty, with extreme weather events becoming the norm and the average person’s life becoming more desperate and brutal.

It’s the food that really worries me. It would not take much of an unpheaval in the bread basket area of the world like California to send the prices of every day foodstuffs through the fuckin’ roof.

That would trigger inflation, maybe even hyperinflation.

And that’s just here, in the ridiculously decadent modern world. Here, we can survive there not being as much variety in our foodstuffs and people having to start really hardcore think about how to cover their basic nutritional needs with money that is shrinking in real value every day.

Might cure us of our junk food habit. But probably not. Not as long as junk food remains much cheaper than real food AND tastes better in an artificial hyper-stimulus kind of way we all know and love.

All those survivalists should really be investing in agriculture. The future will belond to the people who make food.

I hope democracy survives. It stands a good chance. The modern democracies of the world have all raised generations of citizens who expect to have a say in things and who really do not like being told what to do.

It might become an even more corporatist form of democracy, though. Depends on how the power dynamic battles go. Might end up with a world run by big agribusiness. Or we might end up with a real people’s revolution where people know who’s to blame for the hell life has become and want their fucking heads like in the French Revolution.

Certainly, people will no longer be content to sit on the sidelines saying “Well, if the politicians won’t do anything about it, I guess we’re fucked. ”

I predict a rise in eco-terrorism. There will be a lot of angry young people who are extremely aware of how badly they got screwed and want to strike back at the people they hold responsible for it.

Depending on how my own life goes,  I might be right there with them, gathering wood so we can burn these bastards at the stake.

Right now, in North America, we are in the dying days of people being able to ignore the problem as long as it isn’t having an effect on them in their lives and in their area.

Not too long from now, the craziness will be happening everywhere. Forest fires, hurricanes, tornados, pestilence and plagues, you name it.

It would be the days of the Black Death all over again. Maybe not in terms of loss of life – depends on whether we can defuse the next superbug viral bomb before it explodes or not – but in terms of things getting seriously fucking Biblical.

I suppose religiong of all kinds will see an upsurge of people looking for answers.

So yeah. Pretty sure the world I know and love will end within my lifetime and possibly within this decade.

That might be dragging me down a bit.

Like everyobne else, I’d been shoving that thought out of my mind because it is simply too big a thing to cope with. It’s too monstrous and horrifying and probable to think about. Much easier to hide in our hobbiexs and pretend it’s Business As Usual, full speed ahead, no problemo time.

Ironically, given all the doom and gloom I just portended, I actually feel a lot better now. It feels good to have finally let the truth in and spoken it aloud (so to speak). I think the denial was taking a heavy toll on me. I am not someone with a knack for protecting my hapiness from unwanted interference from reality.

So now that I have all that out of my system, I feel much better. That might even have been the root cause of my recent mood downturn.

The world seems like a brighter and happier place now that I have finally admitted to myself that we are all doomed.

Because gosh, team, what’s important is that we have each other.

Plus, when things get bad, there’s always sex cults.

And I want my own sex cult.

I will talk to you nice people again tomorrow.