Hey, check out this YouTube video! It has me in it!
Yes, that’s me in a talking head video. In the future I will add at least a little panache to the vids in case anyone wants to actually watch the thing, but for my first video after a very long absence from YouTube, it will suffice.
Like I said in the caption, I know that is sounds like I’m in a cardboard box. Dunno what’s up with that. I will have to inspect my new toy and see if there’s tape or a sticker over the microphone that I’m supposed to remove.
Still, the visuals are sharp and beautiful like digital video always does, I think digital video looks better than reality, myself.
So cool and clear and stable!
I think it looks better to me because it compensates for all the tiny little distortions to our vision caused by the fact that we live at the bottom of a sea of air and that air moves in current and waves around us that our mind edits out of our consciousness.
After all, it’s not useful information for most of us most of the time.
Digital video does all that for us, thus relieving our mind of the task.
Well, that’s my theory, anyhow.
Like I say in the vid, I’m not sure what I will do with my freshly renewed video capacities. I could embark upon another video quest – two minutes for 20 days, maybe – but I feel a highly uncharacteristic desire for more definition than that.
Could our boy finally be growing up? Is he ready to commit to an actual format? Can he summon the self-discipline to actually stick to a topic?
Maybe. I will at least give it a shot.
Because I want to build a brand around myself. I want people to have some idea of what I produce and while it is, in fact, entirely possible to build a brand around your personality, and have people watch you because they like spending time with you, that’s a pretty risky gambit and I would want to have something that gets people to come experience my personal fabulousness themselves.
Which brings me to the real problem, which is that the various parts of me don’t really fit together. Am I a comedian? A pundit? A laid-back commenter? A deep diving psychologist talking about what lurks in the collective unconscious? A high flying philosopher exploring the very roots of morality?
I am all these things. To my mind, they are all a part of me that expresses some drive or impulse in me and thus choosing which one is the “real” me seems hopeless.
It’s like asking which feather is the real chicken.
But one can’t very well advertise oneself with the slogan, “Watch Fru! He’s a bunch of things all at once. :
Kind of hard to build a public persona out of that.
Given the recent utter disaster down south, I do feel a call to finally mount my pulpit and start sending my words and my truth into the world.
My powers of oratory and my articulacy and my personal charisma could make for a powerfully persuasive presence and who knows, maybe I could attract an audience and build a following and even have some actual impact on the world.
I have a lot of very powerful truths to speak to the powers that be, and my thoughts and my anger could stir the world to action on climate change before it’s too late.
Kinda makes it seem like I have to do it, doesn’t it?
But I am not good at doing what I am supposed to be doing.
So we’ll see.
More after the break.
I blather on and on
Another video so soon? Wow!
Like the text on the screen says, I dunno where the pink came from, but I did not want ot lose sincerity by redoing it.
Maybe I will export the audio and do a whole new video for it at some point.
Well I managed to do a political polemic. That felt good.
Well, recording it did. And publishing it did. The in between was irritating.
I’d forgotten just how annoying editing video can be. Especially when your skills are as rusty as mine are.
That’s why the above is rather sloppily put together. I am so out of practice! I don’t even remember how to make it center elements on the screen.
And doing it by hand results in something that looks like it was pasted together by an overly enthusiastic eight year old.
Oh well, I will get back into the hang of it if I keep at it. And it does feel very good to put not just my words but my passion and my sincerity and my personality out there for all the world to see.
I am painfully shy yet the idea of that video being seen by others does not bother me.
Well, like Will Smith said, my life is a cage but on stage I’m free. I would be more comfortable performing at Madison Square Gardens than during cocktails afterwards.
If there was a place for me to add tags in the uploading to YouTube process, I missed it. I guess that’s why people sweat bullets trying to come up with the perfect title and the perfect thumbnail to make people want to click.
I dunno. I’m new at this. I will figure it out as I go.
Which is my way. I could never be the perfectionist who could never let anything be seen by the public unless they were absolutely sure it was as good as can be.
Yeah, ick. No thanks. I would never produce anything then because the creative fires would go out way before I could finish and bang would go my will to keep going as well as my ability to believe in what I have done.
So all I can to is make it, shove it out the door, and start on the next thing.
And get better as I go.
I will talk to you nice people again tomorrow.