Aaaand today’s vid might seem familiar.
See, for those who don’t know or don’t remember, I executed that same concept in a video from a long, looong time ago.
But I felt it needed a remake because the previous vid was quite crudely accomplished in terms of my presentation style and I am much more sensitive and sophisticated now.
Plus in the first vid, I didn’t have a shirt on so I looked naked.
I am quite pleased with how the remake turned out. I think I projected my warm and caring personality really well.
Like I said in the vid, I’m not trying to attack or hurt anybody with my vid. I just want to show women how life looks from a man’s perspective by putting them in our shoes. Give them a taste of how harsh life can be for straight men.
I realize the concept is somewhat out of date. I think most Millennial and Gen Z ladies are far more likely to view men as human being with feelings than the more defensive (for good reason) women of previous eras.
Feminism makes things better for men too, at least some of the time. The overall tension level between the genders has gone down a hell of a lot since women needed “Take Back The Night” campaigns and a can of Mace in their purse.
And I honestly hope this trend continues and the amount of attention the opposite gender gets ends up being a little more evenly distributed, so that plain girls get more love and knockouts like my sister Anne don’t have to suffer through the opposite extreme and end up with way more attention than anyone could handle, and not always the good kind either.
Unfortunately, we can’t limit whom we attract to only people we’re attracted to, let alone only to people we’re attracted to who won’t turn out to be horrible.
And she attracted some doozies.
At least we have dating apps now. Those can at least filter out the obviously unsuitable people. The people who have guns in their profile pics, for instance.
I’m considering making another foray into the online dating world. It’s never worked out for me before but I am more stable and confident now and better suited to the task of wading through the waves of boring dudes to find the occasional pearl.
I hope I’m getting less easily discouraged in general. I’ve been very flighty in the past. The slightest thing going wrong could put me off something because deep down my permanent state of crisis mode gave me the flight response of a rabbit on crack.
Still, maybe I should pop a Xanax beforehand just to keep myself level.
It’s hard to convey what it’s like to be anxiety-prone, especially to people who have only ever known me in full Fruvous mode.
But the wildest, weirdest part about it is that the anxiety is beyond your control. The mechanism that triggers that flight response is automatic, and far too sensitive.
And once all that adrenaline is in your system, your ability to deal with situations rationally goes out the window.
You’re on the fast brain circuit now and it doesn’t care about nuance, logic, or long term consequences, all it cares about is escape.
Which is better than a fight response, come to think of it. My anxiety is fairly unlikely to land me in jail.
I think I need to forgive myself for the things I do when I’m not rational. That would go a long way to keeping that toxic “I’m so stupid, stupid, stupid!” response under control so that it doesn’t make things worse.
No wonder I have such a strange, strained relationship with self-control. I have been trying to apply slow-brain criteria to fast-brain moments, and worse, pursuing a futile fantasy of permanent self-control.
Like I could keep my system from activating flight mode by sheer force of will.
More after the break.
Chicka the Chinese, the Chinese dinner!
Having some Bamboo Express tonight.
I started out wanting my beloved Meat Marinara pasta from Pizza Hut but the weirdest goddamn things happened.
OK, first, the DoorDash site said our local Pizza hut was closed. Said it has closed at 7:30 PM. On a Saturday.
A likely story.
So I went to Pizza Hut’s own website, which I have also used before, and even earned the occasional free item that way.
They have a points thing. It’s pretty cool, actually.
So I’m on Pizza Hut’s site and I click on the Pasta tab and… nothing. Absolutely nothing comes up. Not a single dish.
All the other tabs worked normally. I checked. But no pasta.
I briefly thought about getting pizza instead, but nah. If I wasn’t going to be able to get the pasta I wanted, I would get something completely different.
So I ended up my usual from Bamboo Express instead. Number One combo dinner : Pork Fried Rice, Sweet and Sour Pork, and Beef Chow Mein.
At least they still do a combo meal. A lot of places gave up on that. They probably realized that people were getting good value for their money and thought, “No! If they want three different dishes they should have to buy three separate full priced dishes!”
Or do like me and just order from somewhere else.
I don’t like ordering the usual way. I need variety. I am guaranteed to get bored of any individual dish long before I finish a full order of it.
Combo meal are exactly my speed.
I dunno why ordering in always turns in to such an adventure. Especially on Saturday nights. I should learn to be Zen about the whole thing and withhold all expectation. Cease my futile efforts to control outcomes when all we can truly control is ourselves and how we react to the ever flowing river of time that is life.
I think I just invented Zen Stoicism.
I will talk to you nice people again tomorrow.