Patient readers know what this is all about.
I got another needle in the eye today.
And that includes the hair on my head, not just the hair on my face. I should give myself my usual crudely effective (ish) self haircut so I can optimize head loss for the summer.
Invention idea : heat sinks for your head.
Look, I didn’t say it was a good idea.
I wish I could just radiate my excess heat back into my environment in the occasional soft burst of light.
That’d be a conversation starter.
Been pondering wackiness lately. You know, zaniness. The urge to be weird and surprising and funny and mentally stimulating in an energetic and surprising way.
It can be a form of redirected anger.
At least in me it can. There’s been a number of times in my life where instead of getting mad, I got weird. Started bouncing off the walls, metaphorically speaking, being all perky and funny but in a slightly scary way.
Scary to me, anyhow.
This suggests being weird can be a form of aggression. Emphasis on “can”. It usually isn’t, it’s usually just an oddball person being themselves, but I’d be lying if I said I didn’t recognize that sometimes being weird and wild and kooky can be a way of low key messing with people’s minds while also advertising your weirdness to other weirdos who might want to join in.
I adore anyone I can be completely wacky with.
It’s one of the main reasons I love my buddy Maelkoth. We can be completely out of our minds with each other and deliberately try to throw the craziest, most messed up verbal curveballs at one another and love every moment of it.
Reminds me of hanging out with my brother Dave. I miss him.
What got me onto this wackiness kick was the feeling that I should be trying to invest my videos with that wild and wooly energy I brought to Drive Uno.
Admittedly, for Uno, I had someone animating my scripts, so I could be as crazy and random and Python-esque as I wanted to be with no consequences to me.
These days, until I finally bite the bullet and subscribe to one of these AI video generating sites, I will have to execute whatever I think of.
Which seriously limits my ambition level, to be honest.
I checked out Invideo yesterday. They claim they can straight from my script to finished video. And not just in the lame “explainer video” way.
Of course, they also want $35 USD per month, and that’s for the “so shitty it’s almost insulting” level plan.
They know what they have, dammit.
And there’s the fact that I also want to finally solve my power supply issues. And that’s not going to be cheap. Probably at least 80 bucks.
So I feel like it’s a real “choose your destiny” fork in the road kind of thing. I could choose video games, and buy the power supply, or I could spend that money on Invideo or LTX or Descript or something else that can help my actual creative output.
Clearly the latter is the smarter choice. Not being able to play the latest games is a bitch but this computer of mine can still play lots of things, so it’s not like I will go gameless.
Even though going gameless would, quite frankly, probably do me a lot of good in the long run. It would force me to find other things to do with all that energy.
But I don’t think I am ready for that yet.
I’m proud that I have added making a video every day to my routine and found more and better use for my energies that way.
Already, my videos are getting me more visibility than this silly ol’ blog of mine ever will.
But who knows, maybe I will get royally sick of video games some day and truly go on a hunt for more interesting things to do with my time.
Until then, baby steps.
More after the break.
The game I might get
It’s this game with a very irritating name.
It’s called Atlyss and about a year ago it was absolutely red hot everywhere. Especially with furries, naturally, as it’s a heavily anthro animal oriented game, but surprisingly also with the wider gaming audience.
There were a lot of pro reviews along the lines of, “I didn’t expect to like this game at all but it’s actually, surprisingly, super fun. Also, I think I might be a furry now. ”
And it has a “overwhelmingly positive” score on Steam, which is the second highest rating, right after “universal acclaim”.
Shockingly, it has no Metascore on Metacritic. What D. Fuck? If it has enough reviews to have an “overwhelmingly positive” on Steam then surely there’s enough for there to be a Metascore for the damned thing.
Oh well, whatever.
I just wanted a more quantified measurement. Numbers soothe me.
Anyhow, all signs point to Atlyss being an excellent game. And yet, when I look at this trailer for it, all I can think of is “meh. “
‘Those are some pretty “old school” graphics, and that is not a selling point for me because I was around when those kinds of graphics were the new hotness and that, for me, means they will never look “retro”, just “old and busted”.
I hate to think I have become a total graphics snob. But when things look old and janky like that, I find it depressing.
Now it could easily be that if I get the thing and start playing it, I will love the Dickens out of it and the graphics won’t matter.
I’ve played graphically primitive games and enjoyed them before, after all.
But for now, I feel conflicted. All available data says it’s a great game and yet my impression of it from the trailers is very poor.
So I dunno.
But I need to find a new game because Elex mysteriously stopped working for me.
I will talk to you nice people again tomorrow.