It sure gets hungry sometimes.
So my brand new ergonomic cushion arrived last night and I have been testing it out.
So far, results are mixed.
On the plus side, I am pretty sure it’s much better for my back. For one thing, the second I first sat down on it, I noticed that my back was now making full contact with the back of my office chair, and that makes a huge difference.
Because I have had the problem of always hunching over the keyboard since hugh school, and I think that was the source of a lot of my lower back pain.
So right then and there the thing justified its cost by solving a problem I’ve had since I was a teenager.
On the minus side, however, so far it’s not doing as well on its primary mission which was to make things easier on my poor wounded buttock.
The right one, in case future scholars want to know.
The cushion I got is pretty firm. But that, at least in theory, will change. See, the cushion is made of memory foam and it will take some time and exposure to my body heat before it can properly memorize my butt.
So the jury is still out as to whether or not this thing can become soft enough to cradle my butt with the tenderness and care it so richly deserves.
I really hope it can. I want to be able to spend more time at Mr. Computer and less time in bed.
I long to return to those happier, healthier halcyon days before my hospital stay when I sat in front of a computer playing video games instead of doing it lying down.
In fact, I am getting pretty sick of lying down in general. I realized last night while we were watching stuff off the PVR in the living room and I realized I felt a lot better than I had all day.
Because by Whoever, I was actually sitting up. Which is what we evolved to do. Sit up, stand up, even walk around some.
I miss that world.
So hopefully this cushion will be a lot softer in the future.
I want to be able to play PC games again, dammit!
Don’t get me wrong. I’ve enjoyed the heck out of the Android games I have been playing. But they are all casual games. You can’t do a proper PC game on a handheld device. It just doesn’t have the hardware or the interface for it.
I’m never going to play a Skyrim or Fallout 4 on my Amazon Kindle Fire 10.
Not only that, because all mobile games are aimed at a casual gamer audience in order to appeal to as many people as possible, there is a limit to how complex or in-depth they can be as well.
And I am getting pretty damned sick of swimming laps in the kiddie pool.
I’m an OG gamer, motherfucker. I’ve been playing video games for almost as long as there have been video games. I need something more than even the more grownup of my tablet games can deliver.
So go go butt heat! Make this a throne suited to my regal stature instead of what it is now – a royal pain in the ass.
More after the break.
Oh, and you’ve probably already figured this out, but I am back to 1K words a day.
Just thought I’d make it official.
From butt to spine
First, an update from my butt.
The new cushion has already become softer and gently on my big fat tushie. Yay!
I guess the memory of its memory foam is pretty fast. Almost eidetic.
So my ass will hopefully sit easy in the future and I will be able to get back to business.
Hang in there, butt! Things will get better soon.
And now, the spine.
My next appointment at the Spine Clinic at VGH is tomorrow..
And thank goodness I had the forethought to set a reminder for today because otherwise I would have completely spaced on it.
And it’s rather important. Not only because it’s an appointment with a specialist and therefore if I miss it I might not get another till next February, but because this is the next step in finding out why the fuck my legs don’t work.
So it’s a good thing that when I got the appointment, and saw that it was more than a month away, I remembered my tendency to forget appointments that are that far in the distance and set a reminder.
Bravo, me. I am learning to compensate for my., um,. memory issues.
It’s especially good because wow, has this month gone by fast. The reminder caught me completely flatfooted. Somehow, I knew the appointment was around this time of the month, yet it did not occur to me that said time was like, NOW.
So I have been going through a bit of temporal shock tonight. My mind has to catch up to the present and get me ready to go to VGH.
I think the real problem is that said appointment had been comfortably in the future for me for so long I just kept thinking of it that way.
Sad, I know. But whatever. I will go and I will do the things they want and hopefully, somewhere along the line, I will get my answers.
There is a real possibility that whatever is wrong is not fixable. So I will be crippled for the rest of my life.
That would suck. But fair enough. I would still rather know.
Maybe then I will get off my pampered posterior and actually buy a new walker. One built to last, with four wheels and a built in seat and everything.
Or maybe I will give up entirely and get a fucking wheelchair. They seem like they might be more hassle than they are worth, but maybe not.
It’s not like life’s all that easy with a walker,. either.. And a cane or canes are a no go unless I lose a LOT of weight.
If there is government aid in paying for the wheelchair… maybe.
I will think about it.
Amd I will talk to you nice people again tomorrow.