Purging my mods and resetting everything worked. Stuff that was broken in my Skyrim now works as it should.
Plus the game runs smoother and quicker too. All in all, a successful operation.
Not that I can take advantage of my success right now. I’m too goddamned sleepy. Took my sleepy pill this morning at around 8 am and slept a ton.
Now it’s 2:32 pm and I am still very sleepy. And I don’t want to be.
This is the sort of thing that makes me not want to take the pill.
And I know that’s crazy and stupid. By all rational accounts, the pill is a rousing success. I just got six hours of pretty decent sleep, Plenty of time for lots of deep REM cycles. That’s exactly what I wanted from a sleeping pill.
So I know I am being childish when I complain about some leftover sleepiness getting in the way of my busy schedule of playing Skyrim all goddamned day.
Rationally, I should thank my lucky stars that I can get six to eight hours of sleep at all, given how the alternative is sleep broken into naps of 90 to 150 minutes or so.
Part of me prefers it that way, though. It’s way less of a commitment.
Speaking of busy days, today’s a working day for me. E wants a character profile from me and I intend to deliver.
Not sure how long to make it. My natural instinct is to do a deep dive into the character -their motivations, their backstory, their strengths and weaknesses, and so on.
But if the eventual destination for the profile is the pitch document, i am going to want to keep it short. On the other hand, if the destination is the show bible, then going in depth is the right thing to do.
I suppose I could take the radical step of actually asking E what he wants.
I could totally do that. He’s on Facebook most of the time. I could totally message him and ask him what length he had in mind, assuming he had a length in mind.
There. I just messaged him. Yay me! There’s a lot to be said for acting without thinking.
Three cheers for assertiveness.
If….if that’s okay with you. That is.
Meanwhile, in the exploding shtscape that is 2020, apparently the Trump people are making plans to hold onto power if/when Trump loses the election.
Apparently, it’s possible for Republican state legislatures to claim the election was rigged and set aside the actual election results and just choose their electors (the people who do the actual voting in the electoral college) however they like.
It’s amazing how, like Trump, America still finds ways to shock and depress me. I had no idea this bullshit was on the books.
But according to this article, it is.
And at the risk of sounding hyperbolic, this is how civil wars start. Whichever red states try to pull this bullshit are going to basically be resigning from American democracy, and while that won’t lead to war right away, I can’t see it going any other way in the long run.
Luckily, the American military hates Trump. So we don’t have to worry about them being used against the American people. And the intelligence and federal law enforcement communities are not his friends either.
Plus, even his die hard supporters would be hard to defend literally ignoring democracy in favour of dictatorial rule.
I’m not saying they will forsake him but few will be willing to defend him either.
Kind of curious how Fox News would react. It would be the ultimate test of their true nature. To their credit, they have balked at Trump’s most extreme bullshit a few times in the recent past, so it’s possible they would turn on him,
Or at least some of them would.
In terms of armed force, what Trump has is this murky army of thugs who claim to be federal agents but have no ID and won’t give their name.
That, and his most rabid supporters, but they aren’t going to show up anywhere where they might actually get shot.
The question becomes whether the military and federal law enforcement will act against Trump directly. It’s a question that could split the entire government in two.
My feeling is that no matter what, the people who want Trump out of office (if he loses) will vastly outnumber the ones willing to fight to keep him in, and so the outcome is not in question. He will be ousted.
The question is whether blood will have to be shed in order for that to happen, and what long term effects that will have on the US of A,
I really hope that violence can be avoided.
But we’d best start preparing for that possibility right now.
O crap, I wasn’t done. I got like, 190 words to go.
Hmmm. Not a lot on my mind. Managed to make it through a super irritating part of a mod called Wheels of Lull that made me have to jump around in treetops in a dark dark forest and that shit is fun in other games, but Skyrim is really not suited for that.
And that was just the first part of this chapter of the mod. Surely it has other ways of being completely frigging annoying waiting for me.
It’s times like this that make me wish I wasn’t as strongly compelled to finish what I start as I am. Because that was not fun. A rational person would nope the fuck out of there.
But I am not a rational person, and I have the psych diagnoses to prove it.
So I will keep bludgeoning my way along, prevailing by sheer persistence, like I always do in these situations.
But when I finish that mod, that is it. I am done with that character. I am starting a new character, a big brutal badass orc.
Because after all this stealth as my lizard and magic as my high elf, I am seriously in the mood to just bash things to death.
Should be rather cathartic.
I will talk to you nice people again tomorrow,