Well, it’s deposit day, even though we’re in the middle of July, and so it’s time for me to spend what’s left on my Joker card.

And this month, I have about $100 left, so it’s going to take some thought.

I know I’m going to order in tonight, so that’s $30-$40 already earmarked. The rest I will probably spend on Amazon.ca on this n’ that.

I will, of course, get some of my beloved Village Mix from YuPik. That’s a very tummy trail mix that has those little sesame sticks in it, and for some reason, those tasty little things help me sleep.

Got no theory on that. Must be supplying me with some kind of trace nutrient I am lacking and thus easing my biological stress.

Whoa, actually, I have a better idea. To heck with the trail mix for now, I am going to get myxself a nice new clean cool blanket for my bed.

Amazon has a fine assortment of these new “cooling” blankets and I’m a-gonna get me one. My old comforter is a hazmat zone due to many years of it absorbing sweat – and worse, especially lately – so to heck with getting it cleaned, I’m buying new.

I might have to run it through the washer first, though, ironically, as for whatever reason brand new textile products have a tendency to activate the latent eczema in my hands and make the skin on my hands all red and itchy and tight.

Done! I have now ordered myself a new cooling blanket AND new cooling sheets!

The sheets boast that they have “deep pockets” and for the life of me I can’t figure out what that possibly means.

Pretty sure it doesn’t mean they have great personal wealth.

Or that they literally have big deep pockets sewn into them. I mean, what would the point of those be? Extra storage for people who hate bedside tables?

Guess I will find out.

Now the items in question are very reasonably priced, so it’s possible that they are not of the highest quality.

That’s fine. They don’t have to be. They just have to be nice enough for me to be able to sleep betwixt them.

I am quite curious about this supposedly “sweat free” property of their. I have been a “hot sleeper” ever since roughly the middle of puberty and it would be very nice if modern technology has come up with some way to help with that.

Just wicking the sweat away would help a lot, although presumably that would also mean they need to be laundered more often.

I will see how things end up working out, but ideally I would like to have my bedding washed once a week, on Sunday perhaps.

That would go a long way towards a cleaner, happier, healthier Fru.

The sheets will arrive tomorrow. The blanket will arrive Sunday.

So it goes. When you order from Amazon, you never know where your product will actually be coming from, so you have to be ready for odd delays.

Still, it’s pretty amazing that I am going to be getting a new blanket AND sheets for around $60. The sheets are not exactly King sized, so they won’t fit my entire bed, but I don’t give a shit.

They just have to be big enough to stay between me and the mattress cover.

The blanket, on the other hand, kind of has to cover me. But I have no idea what square footage of blanket that requires and the blankets on Amazon are sold entirely by their measurements so I had to take my best guess.

Oh well, Worst case scenario, I end up having to return them.

More after the break.

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Proud of myself

I’m proud of myself for actually remembering that I had something important, practical, and long term to spend my extra money on.

And not just remembering, but actually doing it! Amazing.

And as a result, I will be able to slip into lovely clean and cool sheets and a blanket to sleep in, and that’s a good thing.

I just wish I could be just as clean and cool myself.

All I can do is use my bed bath wipes to give myself a thorough wipe-down. But man do I miss being able to take a shower. I really, really need a nice hot shower to open up and clean out my poor pores and really get my body ready to handle the summer.

Clogged pores do not a happy Fruvous make.

Mood-wise, I keep having those moments of feeling utterly alone and isolated. Usually they pass almost right away, but I am starting to wonder if they should.

Maybe I would be better off if I just slowed one of those moments down and spent some time with it instead of immediately diving back into my distractions with a vengeance in order to escape them.

Maybe escape ain’t all its cracked up to be.

Maybe there’s a lot to be said for staying in the game and getting hurt. Maybe that is the only way to actually get tougher and stronger and thus make your world a much less scary and difficult and painful place because now you have a healthy resistance to the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune.

This is the sort of lesson that the gym teacher types have been trying to teach us pasty white nerds all these years but they were too inarticulate to explain it.

And we nerds need explanations.

Without them, things make no sense to us, and we need things to make sense. We do not trust “gut feelings” and the like.

Which is a shame, because it means we do not have direct access to a whole powerful suite of built in instinctual software that less “smart” types use all the time.

They haven’t any choice. Our kind of thinking and understanding the world is not accessible to them. They just don’t have the hardware for it.

And that means it is up to us to teach them what they need to know in ways that they can understand and handle.

And nothing less than that will do.

I will talk to you nice people again tomorrow/